At dinner the night before my revelation, Eric had brought up the I love My Husband book that I’d made him a while back. We both acknowledged that it had been quite some time since I’d written an entry in it and I made some smart remark about not having felt like it lately.
That morning, after a tearful shower in which I begged God’s forgiveness and strength to change, I took the book out and stared at it for a while. My mind was already changing, but my heart wasn’t quite there yet. I did not want to write in his book. Finally, I decided that God was telling me to and that if I put it off, I would be disobeying God.
So I started to write and the words just came. I wrote about how it had been a really hard year for me, physically, and how Eric had been there for me in so many ways. He’d cared for me after surgery and took over my mom duties. He’d gone through menopause with me, buying me a little “hot flash” fan and taking me to an out-of-the-way, expensive doctor so I could have the best care possible.
He’d met recently with two different Godly men to get advice in life, something that was way out of his comfort zone. As I wrote, I was so overwhelmed with love and gratitude for Eric. And now my mind was made up and my heart was there.
I decided to be intentionally respectful again. To really work on actively loving my husband, in word and actions. To be strong when he’s having a bad day and maybe being jerkish, and use that as an excuse to disrespect him. To not take his hard days personally, and act out in insecurity, thinking he doesn’t love me. He has proven his love for me time and again, and I know in my mind he is crazy about me, even if I’m not feeling it on any given day.
Then, I decided I’d devote one year to intentionally loving my husband. Yes, that should be a whole life kinda thing, but I thought one year of really working at it and maybe it would just become who I am again. Because I’ve been that person before and I know, with God’s help, I can be her again.
I even thought about journaling this year and if it works out, then sharing with you all. But God convicted me of that. Why should I wait for success before sharing? I’m sure there’s other wives out there that could use this encouragement. Today.
Andy maybe, by sharing it as I figure it out, I could help one fed-up, lonely, desperate wife find her way. And then, I remembered a book I always wanted to write, 365 Reasons to Stay Married, a kind of one-year devotional. But the task of coming up with 365 reasons was just too big! However, with help, I can do it! So instead of writing a book, I’m going to share it here and get your help.
Today’s Reason to Stay Married is a simple one. Because I love my husband, and I have a whole book of reasons to remind me why when I forget. Why not start keeping your own list or book of reasons why you love your spouse? Someday, it might come in handy.
Now that I’ve kind of shared how all this came about, from this point on #365 Reasons posts will probably short and sweet, with specific reasons that should apply to all of us. Are you looking forward to it? I am!
If you have a good reason to stay married, everything from the serious to the light-hearted, send it me! You can tweet it, using the hashtag #365reasons or you can email me (try to keep it under 500 words so I can read them all) at angela @ homegrownmom.com (No spaces). Or share it on my Facebook page
I’ll be sharing as many as I can here, and before we know it, we’ll have a great resource for struggling marriages. If you want to me to link to your blog or Twitter, be sure to include a link.