Happy Independence Day to my American readers!
Welcome to Day 4 of Blessing Your Husband! If you haven’t yet downloaded the challenge, you can do so here for free.
Sometimes in this challenge, you’ll get to one and you can’t make it work for the day. This was the case for me on Day 4 of the Challenge.
I am doing the Challenge a few days ahead of you guys, so that I can blog about it. Day 4 rolled around and I was supposed to take a walk with my honey.
On the day in question, I wouldn’t even see my husband until bedtime. So I put it on the calendar for another day.
So our walk hasn’t happened yet. But when it does, it will be nice to get out of the house and enjoy each other’s company with nothing but nature to distract us.
If you get to a challenge you can’t complete for some reason, just schedule it for another day! You can still pray and meditate on the verse and do your fill-in sentence. And if you can’t, just skip a day and move on when you’re ready.
Sometimes when you do something like that, the timing ends up being perfect for a later task. So don’t beat yourself up if you fall behind!
As I am writing this, Wednesday night, I am recovering from a terrible day. I had surgery that put me into menopause last year and I take hormones every day now just to stay balanced. I ran out of my hormones for a couple of days and my body and my mind were absolutely a hot mess. Quite literally. I am a walking hot flash.
I was also on my way to being deeply depressed, I couldn’t stop crying, and I had a constant buzzing feeling in my head. I’ll tell you, it’s scary to think of what it would be like if I couldn’t have access to those hormones for some reason!
So while I was dealing with these emotional and physical challenges, all kinds of things that had been building up for a while came to a head at the same time. I mean, like 3 different situations were thrown at me in the span of two hours.
I did not handle it gracefully.
I lashed out at and I had a meltdown.
My husband was a little scared at first, but then he just hugged me and prayed for me. Poor guy. I would not want to be married to a menopausal woman! Fortunately, none of these situations involved my husband at all, so he was able to remain an innocent bystander.
I read my Bible and tried to calm down and react like a 36 year old woman of God, but I just failed. I wanted to crawl into bed and put the covers over my head.
So I did. I totally wimped out.
But before I did, I put a brief prayer request on my personal Facebook. I slept a little, and when I woke up, things didn’t seem quite as hopeless as they had before. My head is still buzzing and I’ve got some uncomfortable conversations to look forward to, but I know things will be okay.
I can feel the prayers, and I can feel hope. And I know once I get the meds, the buzzing and the hot flashes will stop and all will be right with the world again.
So why am I telling you all of this?
Because at some point during my meltdown, I texted my mom and she said that she felt I was being spiritually attacked because of this 30 Day Challenge.
I totally agree. And if this attack was a test, boy did I fail it!
But I am not going to let that keep me down.
And I am not going to hide the fact that I have terrible days sometimes and I lose my mind a little. Because I KNOW that some of you lose your mind a little too. And I refuse to only show you the pretty, making my husband happy side of myself. If you’re along for this ride with me, I’m going to share the good, the bad, and the ugly. Sure, I didn’t expect it to get ugly 4 days in, but what are you going to do?
I am a flawed human being. I did not even want to write this post, but I felt I needed to.
If you have made a decision to do this challenge, chances are you are going to be attacked at some point, if you haven’t already.
Hopefully, you’ll handle it better than I did. If you know it’s coming, you can gear up and get armed with lots of scriptures and prayer!
And remember, if you are feeling attacked, it means you are doing something right. Something that makes the enemy want to stop you, or distract you.
Don’t let him.
If you got to have a lovely, hand-holding walk with your husband today, I would love to hear about it!